We are divinely immersed in an infinite field of energy. More than in it, we are of it. Infinite potential is literally at our fingertips at every moment of life. Which is why it has been said that one of today’s biggest issues is that we are not receptive enough. We have these walls up; walls that we put there for a reason, that are meant for protection. But we’re more than just guarded, we’re locked in. It is absolutely essential to dissolve these walls, these blocks, that keep us from experiencing our truest nature and greatest prosperity.
I first conceived the idea for this piece in my daily meditation. It popped into my head and I held it there for a moment before it was released. Later that day, the idea returned and I took a moment to pen my thoughts. The words came in quotes, immediately, as if they had been stored deep within for ages. “You’re not going to make much money doing that, so you’ll want to have something to fall back on.” Even now, I can hear a conglomerate of voices, mostly my parents and grandparents, repeating this sentiment. Because I knew from a young age that I would not lead a conventional life or have a normal career (I wanted to be an actor when I was younger, then became passionate about photography and wanted to be an artist), I was often told that I would need something to fall back on - just in case I failed. It never occurred to me how deeply I held this programmed belief. Until the moment I began writing this piece.
You see, I do more than what you see here and on social media. For the past year, I’ve been working part-time, from home, essentially online shopping for women. It isn’t something I love to do or want to do, it’s something I do for the income. And although having a side-job solely for the income is acceptable, I hadn’t actually realized that I was living out the subconscious belief that was programmed into me throughout my life. The moment those words “you’re not going to make much money doing that, so you’ll want to have something to fall back on” popped into my head and the realization clicked, my ego was crushed. Fortunately, I’m in a space now where this feels like a good thing. I am now crystal clear on the way I want to experience myself in the world and how I want to use my energy (hint: it doesn't involve online shopping).
My original imagination of this piece was along the lines of, “I’ll share some insight about subconscious blocks to prosperity, where they come from, how we can dissolve them, and then give a personal example from my own experience.” So I have to smile at the fact that this piece has instead opened my eyes to a personal block of my own that I had not been willing to see until now. Again, this is good. Now we can move through the process together. Instead of telling you what you “should do”, I’m telling you what I am doing.
The first step is always becoming aware. I do my daily practice to gain the energy and clarity we all need to move through life, but I also have been focused lately on additional meditations that clear subconcious blocks and strengthen intution. A strong intution can easily sense blocks in the flow of energy as well as how to best engage them. My practice also gives me energy to face my own ego and self-deception with devotion. This way, I can see the silver lining that comes along with these ego-shattering realizations (where I would have unraveled entirely in the past). It isn’t easy to face ourselves in areas where we have allowed self-deception, so having a daily practice that builds energy is essential. Creating a space where we can explore our own infinity, our own divinity, a space where we can come home to ourselves, is nourishing on the deepest of levels.
If you’re like me, it is impossible to ignore subconscious patterns/blocks once you’re aware of them. And the more you practice and experience your true nature, the more you will be faced with busting through your blocks. So, as Yogi Bhajan said, “Keep up and you will be kept up”. Stay in your practice. If you don’t have one, develop one!
Once you have the clarity and energy to face yourself, you must create an action plan. It’s considered a big to-do in the spiritual community each New Moon to set intentions, but intention without action is nothing but a thought. This is a big one for me and I see it reflected in friends, family, and society at large. We talk for days about what we intend to do, what we want, but we rarely actually go out and create that experience for ourselves. My teacher has said, “There’s a difference in affirmation and determination.” We often use intentions as affirmations, with the idea that if we write, read, and repeat these statements that somehow all will materialize perfectly for us. I personally used to rely on the idea that the sacred sound current of the Naad would do all the work for me, as long as I sat and sang my mantras, regardless of how much energy I put into it or how I went about my day afterwards. It was no wonder I never actualized my intentions during that time. Without action, we aren’t creating the pathway to re-action (or change). We must invest our energy to receive results.
And so, I am now getting clear and creating my own plan of action for leaving my side-job and fully investing myself in what I know I am meant to be doing. It is a little scary? Yes. But I am working moment-to-moment not to subscribe to that channel, and to instead stay in my higher nature. Sat Nam.
All my love, Loren